Chrissy's Journal

Winter wonderland. No question about it. I live in the armpit of sunny California. When I lived in the snowy areas, I loved it so much more than the sweltering heat of a California winter. I enjoy the cold way more than I like the heat. I don't belong here!

Ever have that one person you've outgrown, but don't know how to say it?

Just spending time with my darling Emilee. :)

McGee from NCIS. Duh. If you have to ask why, I should smack you upside the head!

It really depends on the offense. I try not to hate anyone, so if I'm holding a grudge, you've done something extremely horrible to me. I think we all remember the man stealing bitch from last year. While I don't even want to have anything to do with the guy at all, the fact that she backstabbed me when she was supposed to be my friend still pisses me off. I cut off contact with both of them, but she's pretty clueless and once in awhile messages me. Then I get pissed off all over again.

Other than the biggies, if you've offended me or something, I'll usually confront you, we'll talk and work it out. The longest I've stayed angry was probably a couple months. We worked through things and now all is water under the bridge.

So, yes, if you haven't done anything extremely harmful to my health or happiness, it's entirely possible to remain a good and trustworthy friend. However, if you're a backstabber, you're gone for good.

Okay. So, life has been pretty good to me lately. Bonnie has arrived and is adjusting rather well to her new home. We all love her to pieces. Fergus isn't too sure of her yet, but he'll be okay with her soon enough.

I've been talking to someone new. We'll see how that goes.

Someone deleted me yesterday. I normally wouldn't care, but it wasn't just some random unknown person. It was someone I talk to and hung out with in real life. We'd even spoken a few days prior and nothing seemed wrong. She didn't mention being upset with me or anything. In fact, it was quite the opposite! We were planning a website/zine together. So, the deletion without any warning was somewhat of a shock. I've tried asking what's up, but I've been blocked from messaging her. It's her loss, but I'm confused and heve no clue what I've done that was so wrong. Sure, I haven't been hanging out as much but she knew I've been busy with work and life because I talked to her often via IM or LJ or email. And she seemed okay!

All I ask is please, if you've got a problem with me or if I've upset or hurt you in some way, let me know. I'd appreciate it. I won't take offense, I probably had no clue in the first place! If you just drop me like a bad habit, I'll wonder what's up and I hate not having closure.

Thanks

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I am so excited! We are getting a new puppy. She's a Scottie like Fergus and her name is Bonnie Rose. Anyway, she arrives on the 11th of October. I've met her once and I just fell in love. So we just can't wait!

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I found my livescribe pen this morning. Purely by accident. It had fallen behind the bed and I reached down for something else that had fallen and pulled up the pen instead!

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There's no way we'll find anything huge or even remotely freaky.

*Christina's Ghost Hunting Quote*

However...a Winchester House trip is in order. As is another trip to Alkatraz.

Sometimes, shit happens.

Okay, so as you can obviously tell, I've been a bad LJ friend as of late. I haven't been updating much and I definitely haven't been commenting or even ANSWERING comments to my mediocre posts that do manage to make it online. I apologize. These past couple weeks have been both busy and hellish. My car is still out of order. Plus, last week was filled with dance rehersals and recitals. Right now, I have about a week of downtime and then dance starts up again! Emilee will most likely be taking two classes this year, I'll be taking one again. Then, in October, I have school twice a week until December.

I still want to go for a round of Ghost Hunting sometime soon. As soon as my car gets fixed. It's been so damn long. Ever since I stopped hanging out with Dave the Dork in 2007. I want to start getting into my stuff again. I also want to go Geocaching!!!!! It's been a couple weeks and I'm feeling withdrawls. I have some new equipment to test out! I also want to get to the point where I'm working on my photography more. I used to take pictures and work on my album almost every day. I don't know what happened, but I've been majorly slacking.
Writing too. I've been slacking so much it's ridiculous!

Anyway, seeiing as my car is still broken, I'm sitting in the lunch room watching stupid court shows. I forgot to put a movie in my laptop. We don't get cable anymore, so nothing good is ever on! It's always talk shows and court shows...and you know those, they're ALL the same. People whining about how every one else fucked up their shit...rather than realizing it was their dumb asses that fucked up their lives.

I have a dilema...I am in the middle of something that I never asked to be in the middle of. For those of you who know me personally, you know that I hate being stuck in the middle. I mean, who really enjoys it, right? So, this thing is going on and I care about both parties, but feel like I have to lie about who I'm with and what I'm doing to keep the peace. Sadly, it's not the only situation I'm stuck in. There are two of these situations going on, and I'm stuck. What do I do? I hate lying as much as the next person, but it's like I constantly have to find ways to cover up that I was out with the other half of the feud. I will NOT choose sides. I hate being played against people. It's not Elementary School. You can't have a playground feud and each ring-leader take teammates. If it does come down to that, I will drop both parties, because I don't want to deal with it. It's hard because I'm so close to both parties. I enjoy spending time with both sides. However, things are never going to go back to the peaceful way they once were.

I wish I could go into more detail, but I've mentioned it briefly before and would rather keep it somewhat brief in case either party reads this. It's likely they won't, but still. Trying to keep from confrontation, but unfortunately, I think that's where it's going to go. *sigh* We'll have to see, won't we?

Well folks, this week is finally coming to a close. Sorry I haven't updated much. It's been a long, long week. Recital is all over and done with, and it wasn't that bad really! I'm glad it's over though. All the stress and time that goes into it just wore me out today. Haha. Anyway, our teacher wants to do the class again next year and said "so I'll see you all in my class again and we'll do the recital again."

Haha...

Right now, I'm tired and hungry. I'm gonna go to bed for now and just sleep off this exhaustion!

Today folks, I beat my Ghostbusters game. My over-used quote today was, "Goddammit Ray! MOVE!!!...MOVE FUCKER!! I can't see shit through your big ass head!" The previous level I had all to myself, so no characters were getting in my way. I kept trying to change camera angles, but he stays right on your ass! I finally turned towards him and slimed him. Which caused his AI to spout off varous "don't do that" phrases. Needless to say, even though it took me a long ass time thanks to trying to shoot proton beams THROUGH someone's head, I still beat the game and I'm uber excited about that. But y'know what? Like any game, gotta get my money's worth. Time to play on Medium. Easy wasn't exactly easy...but I'm not the best at shooter games in general. But we'll see how it goes. Maybe after Emilee goes back to school, I'll start up again.

Oh yeah, every time I said, "MOVE FUCKER!" (when I finally got into my EXTREMELY frustrated mode) Emilee giggled. She didn't dare repeat the phrase, but she laughed every time I said it.

So, tomorrow I have tech rehersal and then Thursday is dress rehersal. After that, I just have to get through Friday and Saturday!

Strange that I had a dream about this last night and this was the question that popped up this morning. I had a dream that I was on Mars and we were travelling around to other planets and studying them. It wasn't by spaceship though, it was some kind of instant transport. Not QUITE beaming, but close.

Weird. Very weird.

But yeah, space travel has always been an interest of mine.

They keep saying they need to come home. Well you know what? You violated another country's laws. Sit in prison. You don't have the right to come home a free person when you did something illegal. Sure, I don't like North Korea either, but I do agree that you have to pay the price for what you did. You illegally entered a country. You plotted to do a smear campaign. Yeah, okay, you didn't do something horrific on a terroist level, but you were caught doing something you weren't supposed to be doing. Stop bitching about it and do your time.

Friday and Saturday, I went Geocaching with Emilee, Angela and Eli. We are Team Ecto-Brats. Friday was terrible. We couldn't find SHIT! But we did find one small cache. Today, we found three out of nine caches. Two were too dangerous and a few others looked as if they had been muggled. We made some small item trades and went happily along our way! On the way home though, the fucking Nazi-Mobile broke down. I JUST had that fucking thing fixed! I might just let it sit for awhile and get a bus pass. Simply because I'm not ready to shell out cash. Angela has a friend who does good work, so, after I'm done stewing and once my G.I. bill kicks in, I can probably go that route.

Yesterday, my sister told me that I was going to be an aunt again. Haha. I'm excited, even though I can tell it was totally unplanned! Sis is hoping for another girl right now so she won't have to spend too much on new boy stuff. I know the BIL is probably hopiing for a boy. LOL

We'll find out soon enough!

I'm not really sure what to do today. I have to at least go to Walmart and do a couple money orders. But no one to go with! WTF? I also need to do my school registration. Fun stuff. I don't want to part with my money! I know it will be worth it and I'll be more than reimbursed by the G.I. Bill...but still. Why is school so damn expensive?

So right now, I'm just sitting in bed. I can't find the changer, so Degrassi is on. I'm like half ass paying attention. I still don't see what the big deal about this show is. It's like every other show on TV these days. Utter crap.

Other than that, I'm getting pictures uploaded. I'll post some more later on.

Yes I have. I was tired of being treated like a project instead of a friend, so when I had the chance, I read a little bit of her writings and found that she was certain I was crazy because I didn't conform to her standards of "perfection". I sometimes wish I'd never read it, because I'd rather think I was a friend...not a project.

I just realized that I haven't updated in a little while! Let's see, so yesterday, I went to Westminister for my dad's retirement luncheon. It was nice. (Pictures soon to come) My dad had the most guests at the table. He had 12, everyone else had like one or two. My brother told him "hey dad, you won!" LOL Anyway, so since I was off yesterday, I took full advantage of sleeping in and everything. On the way home from Westminister, I stopped by Best Buy. My intentions were to get the new Ghostbusters game for the Wii, but instead, I picked up a new laptop for school. It was on sale for 350 dollars. It's pretty nice. Not top of the line, OMG faster than Superman, but it's decent and perfect for what I'm going to be using it for. I'm still working on my big computer project too. I'll probably start working on that hardcore towards the end of the year. I need to take a couple trips to Fry's.

I'm going to register for classes online tonight. My mom and I were supposed to go to the school tomorrow because I'm off, but I just checked and the school is closed on Friday's during the summer. So yeah, I'm gonna just do mine tonight and my mom is going to have to go while I'm at work.

I'm watching People's Court in the break room right now. I swear people are so stupid. They have an abundance of ghetto and white trash on this show. It's almost like Jerry Springer, except the judge actually keeps their asses in line and tells them exactly what she thinks of them. I can't stop laughing at these idiots. Sometimes I wonder why people aren't allowed to take a test before they breed, because honestly, some people need their "right to breed" revoked.

Yeah, like that'll ever happen.

Innocence. I miss seeing the world through childish eyes. I miss thinking my parents were immortal and super-heroes. I miss not having to work all day...when it wasn't mandatory to be responsible. I miss thinking my parents knew everything. I miss it more now that I'm a parent and my daughter thinks I know everything. I miss just about everything.

Honestly? I seriously think I belong in the 40's or 50's. Not sure so much as a teenager, but in general. I don't know why, I just sometimes feel that I don't belong in this decade at all...except for my mad computer skills, everything else is just...yeah.